Thursday, February 28, 2008

provision

Since surgery last week, I have been a bit in the dumps. I'm craving sugar and looking at my pathetic wardrobe thinking it really needs a shot of adrenaline. February get so depressing in MN because it seems winter will never be over. This time of year I'm always sick of everything in my closet and find myself wanting to shop for something new, something fun, something colorful and spring-like. I also always get that way after being PG and nothing fits right anymore.

So, the thought in the back of my mind was something green or orange would be nice as I surfed the net and ate half a bag of black licorice. Somehow, I ended up on a site that sells vintage saris transformed into double-sided wrap dresses. They were $30 each - within my budget. They were very different from anything I've ever owned and both very colorful and fun. I looked at two possibilities and then hemmed and hawed like I usually do when faced with the prospect of spending money. I have the typical Mom problem of being too practical and thinking the money could be better spent on diapers or flour.

That was yesterday. Today, I received a package in the mail from one of my aunts. Inside I found three books on miscarriage, a tin of three dozen homemade chocolate chip cookies (which I immediately sampled) and a small envelope with my name on it. Inside was a handwritten letter and a post-it note that said, "Kara - go pick out a new SPRING shirt or outfit or get a manicure or back massage. Just do something cheerful for yourself when you are ready!" Along with the note was $60.

I immediately started bawling - but in a good way. That God could reach out to meet two desires of mine, neither necessary and both quite frivolous, simply amazes and thrills me. He gave me sweets and clothing and I didn't even ask for them. He just knew that I needed a pick-me-up and he provided it.

Today was a fabulous reminder that God does indeed know the desires of our hearts, the depths of our needs and that he is willing and able to provide them.

I didn't question the providence - I went online and bought the two dresses immediately. And I had another cookie.


1 comment:

DrNita said...

That's awesome!
Oh, and now all those dresses need is a white sandy beach and flip-flops. Very cute!